lack of motivation

So for over a year now I have went back and forth on the idea of running my first half-marathon. I know TONS of people who at the OKC bombing memorial marathon in May did the half and the full marathon..and they were people who were never necessarily runners before, so I know it can be done. But for some reason everytime I get super motivated to train for one, I never can fully do it. I will half-ass it for about a month and then completely give up all together. By the grace of God Himself I was somehow able to show up on May 1st and run the 6.2 mile leg for my relay team..cause I didn't train at all. Because I am LAZY!
There has to be a secret. Because in my head I really want to do this half marathon in November in Tulsa. I really honestly want to do it. But then I guess my heart isn't really in it, because I can't muster the energy to start running.
What's really sad is I was so pumped and so happy after I ran that leg in the relay and it was only 6 miles and it was freezing rain...and I was still so happy. (reminds me of when my friend Sabrina cried after running a 3 mile race). Because you just get so overwhelmed and excited that you did something you had never done before. I know that's why Sabrina cried. She had never ran a 5k before..so it was an accomplishment. I know that's how I would feel if I ran the half. I just don't know how to get to that state of mind that people get into where they have their eye on the prize and will do anything to get to it. People who body build and can be so strict on their workouts and food for months deserve a lifetime achievement award in my book, because I would NEVER be able to do such a  thing.
I know that it would be easier to train and get pumped up and all that if I ran with someone, but seems that everyone I know interested in running is on complete opposite schedules.
Maybe in the meantime someone will discover a way to bottle motivation into pill form.



On a side note...my car is on it's last leg. I mean, it's been a good car..since 1999! It's old. It has 225,000 miles on it. It needs to be put to rest. But I have never had a car payment and I know me and Kory can definitely afford one, but that's not the plan we were on. (dave ramsey baby steps). Dave Ramsey also says to pay for your car in cash...to save enough to buy it without having to take a loan.Which sounds CRAZY. But, if me and Kory would start putting money away every month that would equal a car payment it would be do-able. I just need the MOTIVATION once again to stick to my guns and be more cautious of how I spend and save my money. I totaled up some numbers at work today, and let's just say that if I stopped eating out so much in a month I would have a car payment. UGH. money...always find a way to blow it.



Very random thoughts today..but hope everyone finds the motivation to get through the rest of the work week!
xoxo

Man-Candy Monday!

Today has been such a drag and work was so awful to get through. I was bored so here are some guys in Hollywood right now that I am totally in love with. Some cause they are just hot, (sorry Kory) and some just cause I like their movies/personalities.
Enjoy!

if you can't tell, the last one is just cause i think he's funny!
AND...to not leave the guys out...here's all the girls in Hollywood I think are super hot right now.

All of the above for the obvious reasons...but Emma Stone cause I think shes hilarious. If you haven't seen Easy A...you must!


Happy Monday people!

I solemnly swear I am up to no good!

For those of you living under a rock, this thursday was the midnight premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2. The end of Harry Potter! so sad and bittersweet. I have been a fan of the books and movies for so long it seems like and I can't believe its all over. I know its kind of dorky to dress up, but it was SO much fun and so many people dressed up. Every theater was sold out and on the first weekend HP was out it made 178 million dollars. Thats just from friday and saturday night! NUTS! Holds the record now!
I will say that me and Natasha and my cousins are a little too old for those midnight showings. We were all SO tired. Just can't hang like we used to! But, that was probably my last midnight premiere EVER!

Saturday we went to brunch at Nova. Which was SOOOOO good. 15 dollars for all you can drink mimosas and any item on the brunch menu! pretty good deal! The bartenders were bored and kept making us yummy drinks. Pretty nice.
My mom left for Vegas today and Natasha leaves for Ethiopia Tuesday...two completely different types of trips lol. I hope they are both safe on their trips! :( Sad i will be here without them two! this will be the longest I have went without talking to Natasha, cause not sure if will be able to use a phone or computer or what-not. Im quite the texter for people who know me so I am sure I will text her forgetting that if she wrote me back it would cost an arm and a leg.
The girls are coming over tonight for a pot luck kind of as a farewell dinner for Tasha on her trip and I am really hoping that my enchiladas will turn out ok. I am really glad that they are coming so they can all see my house and give me tips on what to do next! I have no decorations because I am on a standstill on what I want to do. I need a rug, which cheapest one I can find that I like is 280 dollars so I guess I just need to go buy it!
Anyways- Happy Sunday! and Go USA! I really hope we win!!!!!!!!
AMERICA F* YEAH!

Chivalry is dead

So lately I've been thinking about how chivalry is indeed, dead. Very dead. Now I'm not saying all guys aren't chivalrous but I feel like most aren't.  It really amazes me the little things guys do and don't do on a daily basis to us women. First of all, my cousins status yesterday said she waited at the door for a couple minutes while all these men cut in front of her and also not one opened the door for her. I mean hell,  I open the door or leave the door open for someone to grab all the time. For men, women, and children I leave the door open. And we can't get a guy to hold the door open for a young lady? Unacceptable. 
Now I'm not one of those women who needs to have my order at a restaurant ordered for me, or be dropped off at the door everytime, or have the car door opened for me..but it'd be a nice gesture. I think it says a lot about a guy if he does those things. Single guys take note! Hell, married guys take note.
Also it shocks me the way some girls let guys treat them. There are always guys at my work on the phone with their girlfriends or spouses just talking to them like dirt! Not to mention always cheating on them! And the girls know they cheat. And they stay! That just lets them think its ok. They know they can get away with it. Give yourself some respect and leave them! Or least cheat on them back! (Kidding) :-) but seriously, all you boys need to grow up.
One guy at my work constantly cheats. But when I asked him what if she cheated on him and he responded with "hell no I'd leave her". Like wtf? Double standard crap is on my nerves..
Anyways. Enough with that.

You know what I want? To not have to work. Theres something about not having to set an alarm everyday and HAVE to be working 7-3:30am that I'm craving. I need Kory to make a ton of money so I can stay home. Wouldn't that be great? Yeah I'd probably get bored after a while. But I can find something to do

Also I look totally stupid in this picture but I put a little purple in my hair and wanted to show it off.

Back on the grind

Nothing like a four day weekend to really make you not wanna be at work. Today is miserable! Not to mention we live in Edmond but its deer creek county or something dumb where you can pop the big mama fireworks out there. So people were setting off the extremely loud and huge fireworks all night. It was 12:30 and they were setting them off right outside our house. I tried to get Kory to go tell them to stop that some people had to go to work the next day but he wasn't having it. So I didn't sleep AT ALL!
Also, I don't know what's wrong with me but for the past week and a half I have gotten up in the middle of the night to pee like 5-7 times. Literally almost every hour. Its stressing me out cause its making it to where I can't sleep. So I'm going to the doctor today to try and figure all this crap out. Whatever you do though...never try and diagnose yourself through google. You will scare the living crap out of yourself. I looked up something along the lines of frequently having to use the restroom at night and I got all kinds of scary things. Bout thirty minutes into looking I had convinced myself I have to have diabetes and that's the only explanation. So, never doing that again.

I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. I spent mine at Lake Texoma with Natasha and Sarah and Natasha's family..it was soooo hot but so much fun. My nose and shoulders will be peeling anytime now. We went to the casino one night and I was almost sure I would walk out a couple thousand dollars richer..but that just wasn't the case unfortunately. 
Hope everyone has a good Tuesday that's feels like Monday and if you have never seen the honey badger YouTube video then you need to. Its hilarious. YouTube honey badger and it should be the first one that shows up.

Holler back!